Today hasn’t been a good day for me. Actually, the past couple days haven’t been too good. I found out my little cousins are moving from next door next week. I knew they weren’t going to be living with my grandmother forever or next door to me for that matter but I don’t think I was ever really expecting it. Those kids changed my life.
Before them I was probably on a path to nothingness. I had way more dark days then I did ones where I was happy.
I felt myself falling into this darkness. They helped me come out of that and for that I will always look at them as more than just my cousins. So knowing I won’t be seeing them everyday anymore is hard.
I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately, mainly because I’ve been spending more and more time with my thoughts. With my writing. I made a decision to try and be a better man a couple years ago and I’m proud of myself, I hope you’re proud of me too.
It’s hard though because these women out here just aren’t who they say they are and it’s making me cold. I can’t even explain to you how hard it is to meet people and get invested only to realize she’s not you.
I’d probably never write this or say this to anyone on social media or in public but I fall in love really easily. It’s why I don’t sleep around, it’s why I try my best not to get attached to people. I love the idea of love when it’s real and right but hate what love does to me when it isn’t. I feel like every time I fall for someone and it doesn’t work I lose a slight piece of myself. It’s taking away from what I have to give to you.
The new book is almost finished, it still needs a lot of work but it’s almost there. I’m excited for you to read it.
Love Always and Forever,